Our 1st Christmas

Dave with his first gift

Me with my new pj's and My Princess Stocking. Yes it has diamonds, and velvet, and gold, and all! I love it!

So Dave and I had the greatest Christmas we could have ever asked for this year. We feel so blessed with everything our families got for us. It was touching and sweet and we are so thankful to have such amazing families.

For Christmas Eve we did what we will do every year. (I did it last year with Davey because we were engaged, but this year we got to sleep in the same bed!) We went to his parents house and ate dinner, played Bingo, played games, opened the name exchanged gifts, Lou read the Christmas story out of the Bible, Bonnie told us all about the tree, and we just hung out and spent time with family, and then settled in to spend the night. It was so much fun.

I made cookies this year and took them over because of course the kids have to have cookies for Santa. That was something that we did at my house every Christmas Eve, so I just have to bring my tradition home to Dave's house with me. So we spent about 1-2 hours decorating the gingerbread and the sugar cookies with the kids. We had sprinkles, red, green, and white, frosting, frosting to write with, and just about everything any child could imagine of wanting. It was so much fun!! Each child then got to pick 1 cookie for Santa which we put on a plate with a glass of milk and sure enough in the morning Santa had come and taken a bite of each cookie and drank ALL the milk. :)

I woke up at about 4 when everyone else was asleep and I went downstairs and and just sat in front of the tree and looked at it's beauty and all the beautifully wrapped presents. It was so much fun. I sat there for an hour before I went back to bed. I just thought of the true meaning of Christmas and how grateful I am for what my Savior has done for me. That tree was beautiful. I loved all of it.

The next morning we all woke at around 8:30 and started opening presents. I can't tell you the massive amounts of presents you can have when you have 8 children, their spouses, their children, stockings, and all of it. That room was PACKED!!

Dave has the most amazing nephew named Lincoln though, and he truly taught me the true meaning of Christmas this year. He 1st told his Mom that if Dad and Lilli (his little sister) had been to naughty this year that he would give them all of his gifts from Santa. He then had 2 requests for Christmas. A SUPER Green Bouncy Ball and a Wall-E book. He opened those and was so thrilled that Santa had brought them that he didn't even want to open anymore gifts. I can't believe what an amazing mother Bonnie is and an incredible father Kimball is. Their children were happy with just a few gifts, and so grateful and so loving, and needed nothing else. It really touched me because all of us just opened our gifts and moved on to the next, but Linc was literally thrilled and so excited over 2 gifts and so thankful. It was just a very touching experience to me.

After we were done at Dave's parents house we headed to Papa Kirk's and Momma Cay's for Abelskivers (Danish Pancake). Dave and I got there and we were the first. I was shocked. Then everyone started showing up and we all had breakfast. I even got to see my childhood best friend who now lives in Italy. I haven't seen her for 3 years and it was so wonderful to see her!
Christmas at my parents was a completely different but amazing experience. It was so touching and so emotional. My parents are amazing and went all out this year. They know (obviously) what Dave and I have been going through and gave us a gift that we needed more than anything else in this world. I had Photo Calendars made for my mom and dad and we wrote them a card which made them cry, and it was just an amazing experience. We were truly touched to say the least. We truly have 2 of the greatest families in the world.

After my parents house, we went and saw Dave's grandfather in the rest home and then back to Dave's parents for Christmas dinner. (We had still yet to have our Christmas together). We had dinner and then at about 9:30pm we headed home to have our 1st Christmas together.

We were so excited when we got home. We ran in like little kids and grabbed our stockings and looked through them. We then moved on to the presents. Dave got me the most thoughtful gifts. Things I have wanted for years that he has just heard me talk about. I was so extremely surprised because I never expected it at all. He knows exactly what I love and did such an amazing job. I'm so blessed to have such an incredible husband. I got him mostly clothes because he needed long sleeved shirts. I got him a couple thoughtful gifts, but not nearly as sweet as his. I love that boy! We had such an amazing Christmas.

We then settled on the couch to watch "A Christmas Story" because I have never seen it and so we were going to watch it for my first time, and yes I thought it was absolutely hilarious. We had so much fun!

I truly had the greatest Christmas I have ever had in my life. I can't express the joy I have from my husband, his family, and my family. We are just so blessed. I'm so grateful for the love that people have for us. This was the best Christmas we have ever had!! I don't know if anything will ever beat this year.

Our 1st Christmas together and a kiss to end our perfect day.

New Strasburg Christmas Tradition

So because Dave and I have had so many Christmas miracles to count this year, we came up with a family tradition that will mean more to our little family than any other person will ever understand. Every Christmas Eve with our little family we are going to start watching "A Charlie Brown Christmas". It teaches the true meaning of Christmas and it's get the point across of what Christmas is all about, but most of all it is Dave's favorite show in this entire world. So that is our new Family Tradition. Plus, now we have our Charlie Brown Christmas Tree to put out with it every year and I can tell you that, that tree will have more meaning to us in our marriage then any other tree we will ever have! I love that I have a family to make traditions with this year!

Humbled and Touched

Today I had one of the many incredible experiences I seem to be having lately thanks to all the prayers being said on mine and Dave's behalf. Last night I had a rough night. I didn't sleep a wink. I was kind of cranky this morning and not feeling too good. Dave had a meeting with the Bishop at 10 and so I woke him up and got him on his way. A little after he had left I heard someone shoveling my walk. My sweet sweet neighbor had shoveled my entire driveway and walk. I just started crying (I seem to be quite emotional these days). Well then a miracle happened about an hour later. Let's begin with yesterday.

I went to put gas in my car yesterday and my card wouldn't go through. I called my bank to see why and found that I only had $13 in my bank account. I was devastated. My anxiety shot through the roof and I just started to cry. Dave assured me we were going to be just fine, but I just didn't see how. We didn't have very many groceries, I had prescriptions that needed to be filled, and I have an upcoming Doctor's appointment to pay for, our student loan money has not come in and thanks to all of my lovely health problems Dave and I have just been struggling money wise. It's been tough since I lost my job due to my health as well.

This morning I got down on my knees and said my prayers before I went and got Dave up, just asking my Father in Heaven for some help. Through tears in my eyes I woke up my husband with a hug and kiss and sent him to the Bishops office. About an hour later he walked in with 2 HUGE gift baskets full of food. He told me that when he got home they were sitting on our porch.

I literally lost it. I just started bawling. I couldn't believe how my Heavenly Father was blessing me when I was being so stressed and doubtful earlier. It was full of not only food that Dave can eat, but all the soft foods you could imagine for me. Someone from our ward anonymously brought us massive amounts of food that we so desperately needed. In fact it was so much it filled our entire fridge, freezer, and pantry. I can't explain to you the gratitude I had in my heart. Something that we were in such desperate need of and couldn't afford and here it was for us. My prayers were truly answered.

On top of that the Bishop said so many wonderful things to Dave and truly helped him out. Dave has needed someone through all of this just as much if not more than I have and I was so grateful for the inspiration that the Bishop had to call him in and talk to him and let him know that there are people out there that care and want to help us.

I truly have never been so humbled in all my life. My Heavenly Father knew that Dave and I couldn't make it on our own at this moment and so he sent angels to save us. I am so grateful for answered prayers. I am so thankful to inspired people. I am so thankful to be a part of a ward that knows of our situation, is aware that we are struggling, and have been in the situation that they can help. We are truly so blessed. I have never had such a confirmation that my Father in Heaven and Savior love me so much as I did today. They are aware of me. They know of my struggles. They know of our hardships. They know each one of us personally and if we will ask he will help us. He does answer prayers and he does love us so much individually.

And then on top of all of that my Dad said he would co-sign a loan with Dave and I so we could get money because no one else we asked would, so because of the great love that my Dad has for us and his extreme generosity we will be able to have a little bit extra money to live on.

I don't know who you are that did what you did for my husband and I today, but you will never understand what it means to us. You will never know the appreciation that we have in our hearts for you, and you will never understand the love that we felt from a complete stranger. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, for listening to the spirit, following the prompting, and helping us out when we so desperately needed it. I can't explain how truly thankful we are for your wonderful service and love.

Our Christmas Tree

So my relief society president is the most inspired woman I have ever met. She and my Bishop's wife have done more for me these last few weeks then anyone deserves in their lives, but what she did last night tops them all.

Let's start from the beginning. Dave's most favorite thing in this world is Charlie Brown Christmas. We didn't have money for a Christmas tree this year, so I just put presents in the front room. Dave listens to the music, watches the movie, has a pair of boxers, a shirt, a book, and on and on and on of Charlie Brown. We also decided we were just going to exchange stockings this year and I found him a Charlie Brown stocking.

Wendy (my Relief Society President) shows up at my house last night for a visit which I was in such a great need of. She has no idea how much it meant to me. I have been stuck in my house sick for the last 6 months, so any visits are the greatest things in the world! On top of that she asked me if I had a Christmas tree. With tears in my eyes I said no because we just can't afford one this year. She then pulls out a present for me......

I open it and what is it?! A Charlie Brown Christmas Tree and the Charlie Brown Christmas movie. I can't explain to you the expression on Dave's face, and what it meant to both of us. We have talked about getting one for so long but just haven't been able to afford one, so finally after such an inspiring moment, Dave and I have our very first Christmas Tree. Not only that, but it is the best Christmas Tree we could have ever received. I don't think we will ever need another Christmas Tree again.

That little tree and that red ornament means more to Dave and I then Wendy will ever understand and I am so thankful to my Heavenly Father for sending me little angels here on earth that truly fulfill their callings. I love you Wendy. I couldn't ask for a better mom away from my mom.

Laurie (the new Bishop's wife) and Wendy are the 2 most amazing ladies I have ever met. They love me and treat me like I am their own daughter. They take such good care of me and love me so much and I feel their love, kindness, support, and friendship, and they will never understand what that means to me! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, for all you do and for giving Dave and I the best Christmas present we could ever receive.

Max Hall Hates Me

Doing Better

So I thought I would post a little update and let you all know how I am doing. I ate yesterday which was amazing. I ate some vegetable lasagna and it tasted delish! I can't describe how amazing it is to be able to eat and how I have taken it for granted my entire life.

I am still a little sore. It hurts to lay flat and so I have been sleeping propped up on the couch. Dave is King of the bed right now and I think he loves it. I know he loves sleeping with me, but he also loves sleeping in the middle of the bed. :)

I have been crocheting a few things while I have been home. I've been working on my blanket that I think will take me another 10 years to finish. It's a king size quilt and it's beautiful and candy apple red and the softest thing you have ever felt, but I will finish it one day. :) Dave loves it though. He cuddles up to the part of it that is done and it is so warm! I also made my niece's Christmas gifts. I made some scarfs for my niece's for Christmas. I decided since money is a little tight right now with all the medical bills and me not being able to work, I am going to make my Christmas presents this year. I have finished Maddie's and Jennifer-Kate's. I also have Lilly who is Bonnie's little girl. I have her name for Christmas in Dave's family and thanks to my sweet friend Lacey Wing I have her Christmas present. My mom helped me out with my other niece's because we just don't have the money to do for everyone this year. One day things will be easier, but right now we are newlyweds and we are penny pincher's which is absolutely just fine. I wouldn't trade my life for anything in this world.

This Christmas is going to be amazing. My mom is going to let me borrow an abelskiver pan so I can make some for Dave, and we are going to spend time with our families and we are going to have a great Christmas Holiday. I'm going to be well and so our prayers are being answered. As long as I stay out of the hospital and continue to improve then I will be happy with whatever comes our way. I could go without getting 1 gift this Christmas season and be perfectly happy because I have my sweetheart who is my everything and I have my health. Those are the only 2 things that I need in this life. This will be the greatest Christmas ever. I love you Dave!

Utah Fan

My new shirt, and I don't think that anything else needs to be said about it. :) Go Utes!

Surgery Wednesday

Well I am getting surgery to remove 6 inches on my small intestine at LDS Hospital on Wednesday. I am a little scared, but I know I am going to be fine and that this will make it so I can eat again. Well eat something other than protein water. They found a dilated loop in my small bowel and have to remove it. I will be there for 3 days recovering. It will be so nice to have this fixed and not be in constant pain 24/7 anymore. Dave has school so won't able to be with me and my mom is in Oklahoma, so I will be hanging out at the Hospital all alone. If any of you get bored and want to come visit me I would absolutely love a visit! They always make me feel so much better!

I don't know what time I go in for surgery yet, but will find out on Tuesday. I am going to get my hair done tomorrow so I don't look like a sick ugly person while I'm there. Dave and I call it hospital hair when my roots have grown out because they only time I don't get my hair done is when I am sick. :) So my sweet hairstylist is going to do my hair tomorrow morning.

I can't believe how exhausted I am all the time and cold. I guess that's what happens when you have no nutrients in your little body. This surgery can't come soon enough. I just want to feel better again. I truly believe that this will be my last surgery and that I will start feeling better after this.

My sister and brother in law are here and I got to spend some time with them last night which was so fun. I'm just relaxing on the couch now and I think I might take a nap.

If you want to come see me in the Hospital I would love you too! It's LDS Hospital on 8th Ave and C Street in Salt Lake City. I will be on the 6th floor west. Any visits would be greatly appreciated. Just give me a call before you come so I know you are coming. LDS Hospital number is: 801-408-1100.

Love you all tons! -Jilly-

Happy Thanksgiving!!

I have had a hard time remembering to be Thankful this season, so I wanted to write a special Thanksgiving Day Blog about all that I am thankful for right now in my life.

I am thankful for my Husband; how he stands by me through everything, how he holds my hand when I'm scared and wipes away my tears when I cry. I'm thankful for the priesthood blessings he is able to give me to help me through each day. I'm thankful for his strength because I could not go through what I am going through without him. I'm thankful for you David and I love you.

I'm thankful for my mom's hugs. I'm thankful for my daddy's kisses. I'm thankful for my sister's listening ear. I'm thankful for my brother Paul's concern. I'm thankful for my brother Brock's laugh. I'm thankful for my amazing sister in law Laurel and how she always puts a smile on my face. I'm thankful for all my beautiful sister in laws. I'm thankful for my brother in law Bric and how giving and kind he is. I'm thankful for my brother in law Jeff and how he takes my 1am phone calls because "I need to talk to a doctor." I'm thankful for my in-laws for giving us so much and helping us survive daily. We would not be able to live without them. I'm thankful for my amazing nieces and nephews and how they bring so much happiness into my life.

This is the part that gets hard for me. I'm thankful for learning patience. In many blessings in the past 2 months I have been blessed that I will be healed, but that I need to have patience. I found out Tuesday that I have to have surgery next Wednesday to be able to eat again. I have to wait 7 days to get the surgery. My patience has been tested and tried and though I have failed miserably, I'm thankful for the blessing of patience that my father in heaven is teaching me through this trial of mine. I'm thankful for learning that I can't do it all on my own and that some times my only option is to get on my knees and plead. I'm thankful for my Heavenly Father and Savior being there for me and leading me and guiding me in which path I need to take, which Doctor I need to see, and what procedure I need to have done. I'm thankful for my faith. My mom raised me to have faith in the spirit and in the Lord, and I'm thankful that I have so much faith in my Father in Heaven.

I'm thankful for Doctor's. I'm thankful for modern medicine. I'm thankful for the IV that is keeping me alive right now. I'm thankful for the health that I do have. I'm thankful that in a week after my surgery I will most likely be done and healed and truly get to start to live life again.

I'm thankful for the Hospital staff that takes such wonderful care of me at LDS hospital when I am there. For the amazing nurses who care so much and come at my every call. I'm truly blessed to have found such an amazing hospital.

And last but not least, I'm thankful for this wonderful, stressful, and trying, life that I get to live each day. It is the greatest and hardest thing I have ever had. I put my husband through a lot, but he has no idea how thankful I am that he gets to be a part of my life. I love living. I love being able to wake up in the morning and know that I have another day to live. The gift of life is the greatest gift we could ever be given. I wouldn't trade one second of my life. I'm lived a lot and gone through a lot and continue to go through a lot, but I am so thankful for every second I have lived because it brought me Dave and that is the person I am most thankful for on this Thanksgiving Day. My husband is the most incredible man and I love him with all my heart. I wouldn't want anyone else, and I couldn't ask for any better. He truly makes my life worth living and I will continue this battle and continue to fight and continue to be thankful for all of it for him. I love you Dave.

More Tests

This weekend has been exhausting. I was able to go get some fluids at the hospital and that gave me a little strength. I called the Doctor this morning and they are going to do an upper GI series, CT scan, check my liver, check my pancreas, and do some blood work.

My Doctor came right out today and said he has no idea what is going on, so we're just going to test until we figure it out. It's a little disappointing to hear that he has no idea what is going on. In fact it makes my heart drop a little. I had a good cry last night and this morning.

I don't know why I am going through this trial right now. I don't know why my body doesn't want to work, and I don't understand why no Doctor knows what is wrong with me, But I do know that they will figure it out. I know I will be healed. I know I will be able to live life again normally. Someone, somewhere is going to figure out why. I have faith that Heavenly Father knows my trials and my heart and is going to heal me. Whatever he feels is right is going to happen. Until that day, I am going to live each day to the fullest.

It doesn't matter that I keep losing weight, it doesn't matter that I can't eat, and it doesn't matter that I can't sleep and hurt all the time. I'm going to go to movies, I'm going to go to football games, I'm going to enjoy the Holidays, I'm going to spend as much time as I can with my husband, I'm going to go on dates, I'm going to go see my sister in Oklahoma, I'm going to spend time with my family, I'm going to decorate my Christmas tree, I'm going to clean my house, cook my husband dinner, go grocery shopping, put my make-up on, wear cute outfits, and I'm going to feel as good as I possibly can while going through this. Hey, I might even go see my Grandma Margaret.

I know my Heavenly Father is there. I know he hears my prayers. I know he understands what I am going through. I know he sees my desire to fight and stay positive everyday. I know he blesses me. I know he is going to make me better.

Thank you to all of you for your love and support why I go through this. Thank you to my amazing Husband Dave, I couldn't do this without you by my side. I couldn't do this without you holding my hand. Thank you to my Mom and Dad for loving me and doing all you do for Dave and me. You make it easier to live. I love your visits and I love your hugs and kisses. Nothing beats a kiss from my Dad!

Please continue to pray for Dave. He needs the support, and strength a lot more than I do right now. Please pray for my Husband.

I love you all so much! Hopefully today will go well and I will get some answers!! Once again, I'm out, but I'll keep you updated!

Colonoscopy/Endoscopy

Well today is one of the many days I have to go through to try to get well. Last week I lost a total of 17.3 lbs. The doctors weighed me 1 week earlier and were absolutely blown away with what they saw when I was there the following Monday. I still have not been able to eat that much, but I did have a milestone this week. I have not had any solid foods since October 30th (crazy I know) but this week I was able to keep down a few bites of soup. This was amazing to me! I have lived on nothing but gatorade and water for 3 weeks, so to keep a few bites of soup down were incredible! It not only tasted delicious but I felt better then I had in weeks.

Later on in the week I went and saw my Doctor. I still had not been cleaned out like he would have liked. I had taken 2 bottles of miralax and also 3 liters of Go Lightly. My body just doesn't want to seem to get well, so what I am putting in is not coming out. They can't really figure out what is going on. They know my colon is not working and they know it is full, thus the reason I am throwing everything up. They just can't seem to figure out why it is staying that way and why my bowels are refusing to work.

Today at noon I go in for a Colonoscopy/Endoscopy. They want to run a camera through my entire digestive track and see if they see any blockages or obstructions or can find out some conclusion to what is going on. I'm a little frustrated.

My poor husband has been a champ through this whole thing. It's not easy to be a wife of a food addict and have that person not be able to eat. I have not been nice, I have not been positive, and I feel like I cry everyday. It is really draining mentally and emotionally to be sick all the time. It's also hard to go from Doctor to Doctor and have them tell you that nothing is wrong, or they don't know what is wrong.

I know my body. I know I can't eat. I know I throw up anything I try to eat. I know that there is something wrong, so listen to what I am telling you and diagnose it. That is your job as a medical health professional!! I just wish I had my brother in law here to look over all my CT scans and figure out what is going on. I would really like to be a lab rat for the Medical Students up at the University of Utah Med School and have them do tests and tests until they find out what is going on with my body.

If I had one wish for this Christmas season, and I know this is selfish, but it is the only thing I want. I want a Doctor to look at me and tell me what is wrong and FIX IT. I want to be healed. I want to feel like Jilly again. I want to stop crying. I want to stop being in pain. I want to be able to eat again and stop whithering away to nothing.

You know, it's amazing how long the body can live without food. I have gone since October 30, 2009 without anything but liquids. I have gone since November 3, 2009 without any form of calories other than water and gatorade. I don't think it's too much to ask to want to eat Thanksgiving dinner. I don't think it's too much to ask to have a Doctor actually spend sometime with me and figure out why food will not go into my stomach without coming back up through my mouth! I don't think this is too much to ask!!

I'm sorry I'm being so negative I have tried so hard to stay positive and know that everything is going to be okay, but today I don't feel that way. Today I feel like a Lab rat. Today I feel like my world is somewhat falling a part and all I can do is grip to the gatorade bottle in my hand and pray that I can make it last a little longer. God give me the strength I need please. If anything, give him the strength my Husband needs at this time.

D&C Section 121 Verse 7
My son, peace be unto your soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment.

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Papa Kirk's 55th Birthday

Yesterday was my Dad's 26th, I mean 55th Birthday. :) He had such a great day and we had so much fun celebrating with him. Even though I didn't get to eat any of it, the whole family went to Brick Oven for dinner. We had lots of pizza, garlic bread, and rootbeer! Micaela, Halle, Jospeh, Paul, Lupita, Katie, Dave, Mom, Dad, and me, were all there.

My Dad had been painting his house all day, so Brick Oven for dinner was a much needed break.

The came out and with his Chocolate Mud Cream (thick as thieves) Pie for his dessert, and we all sang the Brick Oven Birthday song. We passed the cake around and then it was back to Momma Cay and Papa Kirk's to open presents and have cake and ice cream. Dave and I couldn't go back to Springville with everyone, but we sure did have fun at Brick Oven.

Dad-
I hope you had the best Birthday. Dave and I love you so much. I couldn't ask for a better father. I have never known anyone with such drive and determination as you have. You have such an amazing spirit and are so much fun. You inspire me on a daily basis. We are so thankful for all you do for us. Thank you for making us laugh every time we see you. I'm so grateful that I had you as an example of what a good husband should be, because my sweet Dave is just like you. I couldn't have asked for better guidance then from the example you gave. You worked so hard, so all of us kids could have a great life, and great life we did. I can't think of 1 time I ever went without anything I wanted. You truly made my life what it is today and that is great! I love you so much. The world could not have put a better Dad on this earth, and a girl could never get as lucky as the Roberts kids did to get Kirk Roberts as our father. We love you so much and I hope you had a great Birthday!

Love Always,
Davey and Jilly

My Fat Tummy or Packed Colon

So I think we might have found out what is going with my little body on Monday. The whole thing is amazing how it worked. I didn't sleep Sunday night because I was in so much pain. Finally at 5:30 in the morning I started searching for Gastroenterologists because I needed someone to tell me what was going on inside of me, since no surgeon or ER doc or family prac. doc have figured anything out. I was sick of going to the ER every week and I was sick of having surgery once a month. So randomly I typed in GI doctors within a 25 mile radius of my house. I typed in all the numbers into my phone under "Gastro American Fork" or "Gastro SLC" etc. so when they opened at 9 I could call one of them and hopefully get in that day.

9am finally hit and I started calling doctor's. No one could see me that day, and in fact no one could see me until Wednesday. I hadn't eaten for over a week, I wasn't able to drink anything at this time, and I had just been to the ER the night before and was in so much pain. My stomach hurt so bad under my left ribs and every doctor told me that my CT scan looked perfect. I scheduled an appointment with a random doctor in SLC for Wednesday.

At about 10 I was near tears and feeling so discouraged. I was just messing around with my phone and scrolling through numbers and deleting the ones I didn't need. I came to the S's and I had typed in "Sandy Gastro". I hadn't seen it earlier because I had saved it in a completely different section. I decided to give them a call. The receptionist answered the phone and I explained my emergency and wanted to know if there was anyway that they could get me in that day. She transferred me to the nurse and I explained to her what was going on. She said that she just had a cancellation and Dr. Schmidt had an opening at 1pm and she would get me in if I wanted. I was about in tears and said YES!

I got to the Doctor's office that was maybe 15 minutes from my house at 12:30. I filled out all my paperwork and they literally got me in by 12:45. Dr. J. David Schmidt walked into my room at around 1pm. He asked me why I had come to see him, how I found him, who referred me, etc. I told him the story how I found him on the Internet and wanted a second opinion. He said okay, and started pulling up ALL of my history from the IHC website. He was probably in his 30's and reminded me of my brother-in-law.

He started asking me all of these questions as he pulled up my latest CT scan from the night before. He took about 5 pages worth of notes, and then started writing on the paper that covered the bed because he needed to take more. I asked him if he could show me my CT. He said, "Of course. Let me show you and explain to you what everything is." He then showed me and explained to me in detail every part of a CT scan. It was one of the most amazing things I have ever seen. He then got to my colon and showed me what a healthy colon should look like. He then went back to my picture and showed me mine.

Let me explain what a healthy colon looks like on a CT scan. It is basically clear with little patches of white throughout it. It loops all over your body and is approx. 6 feet long. The patches of white are stool and the clear is the air in your colon. You want a CLEAR looking colon. He then showed me what mine looked like. It was completely white. It had maybe 1 or 2 slivers of clear and then was ALL white. It was packed with white from my rectum to the start of the right side of my body. Here is the amazing part, right where I had told the ER doctor where I hurt, under my ribs on the left side; my colon was swelled and completely white. FULL OF POOP that won't move.

Dr. Schmidt asked me when my last bowel movement was. I told him that it had been over a week. He also had asked me where my pain was before he showed me the CT scan and I had told him. He then showed me EXACTLY why I was in pain. He also explained to me why I am not able to keep anything down. Ready for this....my food and liquid have absolutely no place to go. I swallow and because my large intestine is completely full to the brim, my food goes through my stomach and then comes back up because it can't move any further. It's not coming out of me "down there" so it comes back up the only way it can...through my mouth.

This was absolutely amazing to me. I wanted to cry I was so happy that a Doctor was finally able to tell me what was going on. I was also very frustrated that no other Doctor had been able to tell me when it was so clear to me on the CT scan after he explained it. He was also somewhat worried because this is the exact same thing that my mother had experienced. He said that this was probably genetics.

The great news? He said that this had absolutely NOTHING to do with my gastric bypass. He said that my bypass looked great and whomever did it did a great job. He said my small intestine looked great and healthy. The only thing wrong was my large intestine. (Thanks Mom!)

So here's what we do from here. He put me on Miralax this week. The usual dose is 1 capful a week or a couple times a week for people. What's my dosage? 4 capfuls a day!! You mix it in gatorade and I just have to sip it all day long. This is how they prepare people for a colonoscopy. He is basically trying to clean me out. He said if I don't have a bowel movement by Friday then they are going to have to take more dramatic steps. I have an appt. with him on Friday. He said that by then I should have take at least 20 trips to the bathroom. 20!! I haven't had 20 bowel movements since May! I can't imagine having 20 in less than a week!

So this is what is going on right now. We'll see how this week goes. But at least we found out the problem, I am literally "Full of Shit" as Dave put it. ;) Let's see if we can clean me out! Pray that it will work! I'll keep you all updated! This should be a fun week :P

My New Favorite Thing

I have found make-Up that is amazing, mineral, healthy, and 75% less than the mac and bare esscentuals make-up that I normally buy. Just to put in perspective, my normal foundation from bare esscentuals is $25 for a small little container. The exact same foundation from my new website $5!!! That is amazing to me. In fact my entire purchase of a set of new brushes, mineral foundation, concealer, cover-up, 2 eye shadows, 1 lipstick, 2 lip liners, 1 eye liner, and a mineral blush, cost me the exact same price that it would cost me to purchase 2 Mac eye shadows!

I had heard about this make-up from a friend, but was a skeptic because I had never used it. This month I was reading in my Glamour magazine and they brought up the make-up line and how amazing it is. They basically gave me some tips that I needed desperately bad. They said to do a few things, so I'm going to share them with you:

1. Go through your make-up and throw away everything you have not used in over 6 months
2. If you don't already have one, get a good set of tweezers
3. If you don't already have one, get a good make-up holding case
4. Throw away your bronzing powder. It will always make you look fake
5. Start using mineral make-up. Not only will it blend better, but it will improve your skin
6. Invest in a good concealer, brown eyeliner, and a nude lip gloss
7. Invest in a good sharpener
8. Have a great set of brushes along with a brush cleaner

So, those are a few of their suggestions. What did i decide to do? I did exactly what they said. I went into my make-up case and threw away all my make-up I don't use. I had lipstick and eye shadow from High School that I still have never used!! I cried when I threw away my bronzer, but Dave will be thrilled because he hates it when I wear it. He thinks I look orange, so apparently Glamour is right. I bought a brush cleaner and invested in a "good" set of brushes. I have had the same brushes since High School, so I completely justified getting them, and I couldn't beat the price. I got rid of my non-mineral make-up. And lastly, I invested in my first ever mineral concealer.

Another thing that I loved about this website is I got to see how the make-up would look on me before I purchased it. They have a makeover where you get to choose your hairstyle, face shape, eye color, hair color, lip size, eyebrows, etc. I mixed and matched make-up, picked the stars that I think look good, and chose colors that Dave likes. Very natural looking make-up. Then I designed my girl and they gave me a list of the make-up to buy to get that look. It was great!

Now I don't want you to think that I am sharing all this because it's some MLM thing or something. I just genuinely love it and was excited about it. I thought that every girl should be able to afford beautiful make-up, and I wanted to share it with my girlfriends.

Okay, drum roll please. The website is http://www.eyeslipsface.com/ E.L.F. Cosmetics.

It is such a fun website and I truly think you will like it. I have researched reviews on their brushes and I have learned that the best are their "studio" brushes. They are soft and don't shed. The reviews I have found on this make-up is amazing. Everyone loves it and now in this months Glamour they tell you how much they love it! The lipstick is so moisturizing and soft! I am all for make-up that gives me healthier more beautiful skin!

I hope all of you enjoy it if you do purchase make-up from there. The average cost is $3 per item!! Yes, I said 3!! They do have make-up other than mineral, but the mineral is my favorite. If you have never tried mineral make-up I would definitely recommend buying 1 item on this website that is a mineral item and just test it out. I have never felt as beautiful as I do when I have mineral make-up on. I feel flawless and light and airy and stunning. Plus, it's so much fun to put on make-up. It makes it even better knowing you are getting good make-up for cheap!

If any of my friends purchase any make-up from ELF I want you to leave me a comment and tell me how you like it, what you purchased, and if you would recommend, so I can try it!! I don't have my brushes yet, but when I get them I will let you know how good they really are. I will admit that those are the only thing I have really been skeptical about because I know how expensive good brushes are. So here's to keeping my fingers crossed and looking beautiful!!

Food Restrictions

So we all know Jill's addiction to food aka 300lb Girlfriend. ;) So I am really struggling with this no food thing. I know I have to do it so I don't die, but at the same time don't you think going out eating your favorite foods sounds better? LOL I'm totally kidding. I'm not about to give up my life with my sweetheart so I can go eat a plate of ribs, but just to let you all know what my Holidays are going to look like I'll share. :)

The doctor has informed me that for the next 3 months I can have absolutely no meat (but thinly sliced deli meat). Just to put this into perspective that means no Turkey on Thanksgiving and no Ham on Christmas Eve. Now, if you understand Jilli at all you will know this is the greatest sacrifice of my life!! Like I told Oprah, "I live to eat, not eat to live". Now granted I'm being a little dramatic about all of this, but I really am devastated. Okay, lets continue. So, no meat. The 2nd part of this diet, no fresh fruits or vegetables for 4 months. I am so sad about this. I wait every year for Fuji apple season which starts in November in Utah. So of course, Fuji apple season starts, I get sick, and won't be able to eat any the entire time they are ripe. Not only that, this means NO salads, NO salsa, NO oranges during Christmas time, NO pies at Thanksgiving, NOTHING. Absolutely no fresh fruits or veggies. I no longer get to dip my carrot strips in dressing or eat my celery sticks at night. I am so devastated. I really think before these next 3 months are over I will cry many times.

Now, the fat person inside of me should be thrilled because what does this mean that I can eat? Puddings, yogurts, ice cream, mashed potatoes, Popsicles, soups, cheese, pasta, and every other fattening thing you could imagine. The crazy thing is that I don't crave those foods anymore. My most favorite things to eat are the things that I can no longer eat. I'm so sad. Yes, I'm looking for a little sympathy because I'm so sad over this. My Holidays are going to tough this year.

Along with the 1st 2 restrictions another one that is a doozy is that I am on only soft foods for the 1st month. I am on yogurts and puddings and anything that is basically baby food for 30 days. Wow, this is going to be a long month. Of course it's Thanksgiving with my family this year, and I won't even get to enjoy my mom and dad's amazing cooking because I can't eat it. One good thing, I am going to make the most amazing sweet potatoes with marshmallows on top and I will eat every bit of them! ;) That is one thing that I am not going to miss out on!

Thank you everyone who reads this and allows me to whine and complain for a minute. I got it out of my system and I think I'll make it. I promised Dave I would do it, so I have to make it. I guess I should probably live for a little bit longer, even if it means no good food :) Happy Holidays!

Surgery

Well the Doctor's don't know what is wrong with me, and why I am not able to keep down any food. I go in for an exploratory surgery tomorrow morning at 7. I will admit I am terrified. I am just expecting the worse. I am worried that I am going to go through what I went through this summer and I am terrified. I have been crying all night. I can't seem to get the worst possible scenario out of my head. I know things will go smoothly and I will be just find because Dave gave me a blessing letting me know that, but I am still scared. Please say a prayer for me if you get a chance. I go into LDS Hospital at 7am and have am scheduled for surgery at 7:15am. We'll see how it goes. I am hoping they will fix me and get me feeling better and finally figure out what is wrong with me and why I am not able to eat. I'm exhausted and weak, and ready to not feel sick anymore. I'm also ready to stop throwing up. My mom is taking care of me because it is Dave's mid-terms and I need him to focus on that and not worry about his wife. I know that sounds impossible but he has to do it. I need my husband to focus on his school and his straight A's that he is pulling right now, and I have to feel better.

Out of everything that is bothering me the number 1 thing that is bothering me is that Dave will not have someone to make him breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I am devastated that I will not be here to take care of my husband. I'm crushed and I can't stop crying. My heart aches that I am not going to be with Dave. I'm devastated that I am going to be staying in the Hospital without him. Oh well, as long as he focuses on his school I will feel much better.

Okay I am going to try to get a few hours of sleep before I have to leave for the Hospital. Praise the world for my mom and that she doesn't work so she will be able to take care of me while my husband is taking care of our family.

I'm going to be okay. I'm going to survive this. They are going to find out what is wrong and for once I am going to start feeling better. Life has to get better. My health has to start improving because I don't think it can get any worse. :) I'll keep you updated while I'm in the Hospital. If you want to come visit me I would love it, just call first. Call LDS Hospital and ask for Jill Strasburg's room. 801-408-1100. Love you all!!

Jilli Strasburg

Halloween Fun/Paula's Party

This picture was the best of Halloween night. Bric, Dave, and Laurz, got in for a picture together. Dave told me to take it and it snapped right as he was kissing Bric. Bricden completely freaked out right after I grabbed the shot. It was absolutely hilarious and made the whole night!! Dave also winning best costume was pretty cool. Melissa made threw an amazing party!! Thanks again, so much, for having us. As always, we all missed Bonnie and Kimball.

Davey and Skyler

Dave and I had a great Halloween. He dressed up as the Count from Sesame Street, as well as many other characters because his costume got modified all night. He would take something off and become someone else, put a mask on and become someone else, and etc. It was so fun and so hilarious. I was a Vampress and I colored and ratted my hair and it literally looked like a wig. It was great! We went to Lou and Paula's for Dave's Mom's Birthday party. How fun! I know. I can't imagine how cool it would be to be born on Halloween. You would get a be a real witch all the time and blame it on your Birthday!! You could just tell everyone, "Hey I was born a Witch." :) We had so much fun! Here are a few pics from the night.

Davey and Jilli

Rachey and the Count

Annual Pumpkin Carving Party

Kirkie Poo-Jilli-and Davey

Dave Carving his Pumpkin

Hitch-Hiker from Hell
Momma Cay and Me
Dave and his sexy Wife

What would Oprah think of me now?! It's officially been 3 years since I was on her show.

Since I won't be with my family on Halloween I decided to dress up for the Pumpkin Carving party. I was out in the garage and found Dave's Billy Bob teeth. I had this amazing idea to dress up as the Hitch-hiker from hell. I looked pretty freaky.

The best part of the whole night was when I went to Art City Elementary to scare Jen (my sister's sister-in-law). She was working at the Book Fair there. It was pretty comical walking down the hallways of the school. There was a couple sitting in the hallway and the lady looked at me and then did a fast double take. She then leaned over to her husband and told him to look. He casually leaned forward and had the most shocked look on his face. I wanted them to know I was joking, so I took out my teeth and asked them if they could tell me where the Book Fair was. They laughed and lead me in the right direction.

When I got to the Library I started walking toward where Jen was sitting. She looked up and then just as fast looked away. I walked right up to her and said, "Do y'all have any discounts on your books?" She couldn't even look at me. She said yes, got up and walked to the middle of the floor and started pointing out books. She was so nervous. Finally I started laughing and she said, "Are you faking?" I took my teeth out as she asked, "Who in the hell are you?!" I took my hat off and she punched me. I was laughing so hard and she was dying. I gave her hug and told her that I was sorry, but I had to come give her a hard time. It was pretty comical. She later told my Dad that when I was walking in she felt so bad because "I just thought she was a cute girl. She just should have tried a bit harder to cover up the bruises." LOL I love Jen! I have to admit that she and her co-worker acted so completely professional when I walked in. I was very impressed with their ability to keep their stares and shock under control. :)

Yesterday was our annual Pumpkin Carving party at Grandma Cay's and Papa Kirk's house. We had so much fun!! Dave has had his Pumpkin planned for 2 months. I came up with mine last night along with everyone else. It was also Micaela's Birthday party. She turned 7! Here are a few of the pumpkins. Halle was the winner of the children and Kirk won the prize for the adults! Halle and Micaela

Kirkie Poo with his Witch

Me and my New York Yankee Pumpkin

The Snow is Here!

So yesterday the snow started to fall in Highland. By the end of the night the entire yard was covered and my yard looks like a winter wonderland. Along with the snow came the infamous Highland wind. It blew all night long and kept Dave and I up for most of the night! I guess that mother earth doesn't just want us to see that winter is here, she wants us to hear that winter is here! Oh well, I better enjoy it until the snow drifts start. It's official though, my driving for the year has come to an end until the snow goes away. Welcome Winter!

Quote of the Day

"I'm not cynical; I'm just experienced."

So when Dave and I started dating I used to have a quote of the day EVERY day. So today's quote is the one above. I saw it and liked it so much I had to post it on my blog. It kinda describes my life up to this point. It's not that I don't believe what you're saying, or think you're funny, or anything else, I just know that 99% of the time most people are full of BS and just saying what they want to get someone to acknowledge them. I can say this because I do this too. People love to hear themselves talk. It's human nature. People love to hear the sound of their own voice and they love to sound like they know what they're talking about. I guess the reason I am feeling this way this morning is because I was sitting here watching the news and I'm sorry but Big Buddha on Fox 13 drives me absolutely insane. He talks and talks and talks AND TALKS, about nothing really. He just runs his mouth. So, it's not that I hate him I just know all about people who run their mouths and have nothing to say. He, in my mind, describes my quote above.

Another example? So I love late night shows. I think they're funny and comical and somewhat witty, but in all reality they think they are a lot more funny then they actually are. They also think that they are experts in every subject they talk about when in all actuality they just talk because they have a million thoughts rushing through their brains.

My goal for this week is to really think about what I say before I say it. I don't want to be the person who is so cynical because I just am sick of hearing what lame pointless people have to say. I'll be cynical because I'm experienced and know the truth from the lie. Sorry if this makes no sense. It made sense in my head as I was talking through it with myself, so who knows, maybe I'm one of the people I'm describing that I don't want to be like at all. And maybe I misunderstood the quote all together. :) Have a great weekend everyone!!

Fashion Designer Day

Well I have wanted 2 outfits for a VERY long time. The 1st being tights and a long tunic sweater to go over them. I still haven't gotten that one. The 2nd is a pair of "boyfriend/weekend" jeans. Since Dave and I are starving students and don't have any extra money I had to improvise. I took Dave's smallest pair of jeans today and decided that with a belt and a little imagination I could have a pair of boyfriend jeans. So I put them on, rolled up the legs, and slapped on a belt to tighten them up. I'm actually very impressed with myself. They are the most comfortable jeans I have ever worn! Why weren't boyfriend jeans a trend years ago? I seriously have never put on a pair of jeans that feel so comfortable but are so cute! I feel quite crafty and fashionable today. Dave came home from school and even said I looked cute, so I was pretty happy with myself. I didn't feel bad stealing Dave's jeans either because they are a pair that he never wears. So not only do I look cute, but I'm comfortable, and saved $30 because that is what the pair that I wanted from Old Navy costs. I'll have to take a picture and post it so you can all see how amazing I am! :)

I am also slow cooking a rack of BBQ ribs for 10 hours today and they are going to be amazing. I feel like I've accomplished quite a lot on this Wednesday. Tomorrow I think I'll sleep in and relax all day. LOL Wow, I don't know how I am ever going to be a mom and have to worry about little kids. I'm too into doing my own things. I'm sure I'll change when the time comes. For right now, I am going to enjoy being married and having no one to worry about but Dave and Me. Life is sweet!

LDS Hospital should be renamed to: "Jilly's 2nd Home"

Yes it's true, Dave and I had another fun filled weekend at LDS Hospital. It started Saturday night with a lot of pain because I had eaten a salad that wouldn't work it's way through my intestine. Finally after a lot of praying and A LOT of pain it worked it's way through. Sunday came and I thought since my salad moved through I would be okay to eat an apple; bad idea. It started out as a light pain and quickly grew more intense. Dave and I thought it was a blockage and after a lot of screaming and crying Dave decided to take me to the Hospital. We weren't sure how serious it was, so we decided to head straight to Salt Lake.

We stopped at the new hospital on 5400 south in Murray. I couldn't sit still I was hurting so bad. The hospital didn't consider me an "emergency" so they had me wait in excruciating pain for about 20min. Finally Dave had, had enough and checked me out of the "waiting list" and took me to LDS hospital. Of course LDS took me right in. They are truly the greatest hospital ever.

The doctor was so calming as he came in to settle me down and ask what was going on. I explained through tears that I hadn't been able to keep food down, I kept dry heaving, and I was having massive pain in my left upper side. He ordered a CT scan and some anti anxiety medication to relax me. After the CT scan the doctor came in to tell me the results. Here is the crazy part. You know how we are all taught that we need more fiber in our diets? I was eating too much fiber food.

On top of that, ever since Sunday I have been so nauseated I can't even eat. Talking makes me gag and even liquids are causing me to feel as though I will throw up. I feel terrible. I just wish my body would start to like me and work properly.

It was really sad when they told me to put on the Hospital gown. I just started to bawl because I was back in the hospital. It was quite traumatizing after what I went through this summer. I was scared to death that they would have to do surgery. Luckily mine and Dave's prayers were answered and they let me go home.

So I'm back to my intestines working but I have to take Zofran for how nauseated I am. I swear weekends hate me! I can never just have a nice relaxing weekend without some emergency. :P At least there was no need for surgery and I am home with my husband where I should be. Now if I could just stop being nauseous I would be great!!

förmiddag som i lärer att tala svensk

I think I look pretty Swedish. I'll blend in well once I can speak it!

So I am learning the Swedish Language. I have been doing lessons since last Thursday. It's amazing to me that I am actually able to read in Swedish right now. It takes me awhile to figure sentences out, but I can do it!! Speaking is really hard. It's tough to get the accent down and know the different sounds of the words with little symbols above the letters. Each "A" has a different sound when it has a different symbol over it. 2 words can be spelled exactly the same but have a symbol on the top of one and they mean completely different things.

I have been impressed with how quick I'm catching on and getting through the lessons, but I'm a little frustrated this week so far. I am into lesson 8 and they are teaching me verbs. I had the hardest times with verbs when I learned Spanish as well. Knowing a little how the Spanish language works screws with my Swedish training. In Spanish the girl verbs end with an "A" and the boys end with an "O". In Swedish it is the exact opposite and getting my brain to switch is difficult. I have done the same lesson 11 times in a row already and still have not gotten 100% I'm kind of anal and don't go to the next lesson until I can test on the one I'm on and get 100/100. It works though because I can read and write very well. Well, at least I think it's well for knowing it a little less than a week. :)

The reason I am learning to speak Swedish is because I am going to go to Sweden to spend a week with my cousin Anna-Karin and her family. That is my goal anyways. When Dave is finished with school we are going to go to Sweden and Germany (for his family reunion). I've always wanted to travel to Sweden because it is where my family is from. I want to see where my Grandmother and Grandfather lived. I want to learn to cook their dishes and see their culture. Plus, it would be so cool to see hundreds of people who look like me! :) Tall and Blond! How awesome would that be? I'll fit right in over there and just look like a local. Nice! LOL

My sweet cousin sent me recipes in Swedish because she knows how much I love to cook. She wants me to figure out how to convert the recipes to English and try them, and I want to have Dave try amazing Swedish food. I have searched for a Swedish restaurant or shop in Utah and I have yet to find one where I can buy food to try. If any of you know of one you need to let me know! I think it would be so great to cook with real Swedish products. Until that happens I guess the closest thing I can get to Swedish food is Ikea. lol

Swedish is such a beautiful and powerful language. You just sound so confident and full of pride when you speak it. I love listening to myself pronounce what I am reading. The accent to the words are beautiful. I can't wait until I speak to another person in Swedish and understand what they are saying! For right now I just have my computer and the pictures to communicate with.

The program I am using is Rosetta Stone Language learning. If any of you are looking for a new hobby I would HIGHLY recommend learning a language, and if you do I would definitely recommend this program. They work at your pace and with your level and they do it in such a way that your brain remembers it. I was reading it clearly after a few hours. It's such an amazing program. I'm taking it slow though. I gave myself a year to learn the language. My goal is to master 1 lesson a day. The following day I take the test and if I still remember it I'll move on. If I don't understand it, then do the lesson over until I get it. It's working great for me.

It's so fun to learn. I miss school so much and so I am so grateful that I have found something else that I can do to further my knowledge in an area. I feel so productive and it's so fun! It's fun because my Dad will send me emails in Swedish (and though I don't know how he does it quite as of yet) and I have to figure them out. It keeps me motivated. I know it will just get better and better! Have a great week and I'll talk to you all later!!

The House is Done!!!

The Front of the House

Well yesterday everyone from the ward came over to lay the sod in the yard. It looks amazing!! Lou and Paula have done such an amazing job. The yard is done, the rocks are put in, the sod is laid, the flowers are planted, the cement is in, and the curbing is finished!! It looks so beautiful! Here are a few pics of the finished yard!!

Everyone did such an amazing job! Lou and Paula have been over here every night for about 3 weeks straight! They must be exhausted, but their hard work has paid off and the yard looks beautiful! Thanks again to everyone who helped and I hope your soreness goes away pretty soon! ;)

A GREAT Week

This week has been a great week! Not only did the Ute's win their game, but Lance (my nephew) got baptized, and my sweetheart still thinks I'm the best. What more could I ask for? LOL No really this has been a great week! I learned a few new recipes that I am loving, went to Roberts and made some new crafts, and spent a lot of time with Dave's family which is always great! I have so much fun with Dave's family!

Bric (my brother-in-law) and Dave went to the BYU game on Saturday and they had a blast. Bric made sure that Dave had a BYU shirt to wear, so he didn't stick out too bad with those BYU fans. ;) They crack me up. They are such good friends, yet Bric is a die hard BYU fan and Dave is a true Utah fan. They loved the game and especially loved the guy sitting next to them that kept yelling at Bric to move. (You gotta love those cougar fans!)

On Saturday Lance, got baptized. He was so excited and he did great! He had the missionary discussions for the last month and he made the decision to become a member of the church. When I was with him today I asked him how it felt to be Mormon (just joking with him) and he said, so enthusiastically, "It feels awesome!" He is such a great kid and I just love him so much. He has so much love in his heart that it amazes me. I have never met a better big brother then Lance. He's so kind and sweet and also a great football player! Sunday was his confirmation and then we headed to Lou and Paula's for dinner. All of Dave's family was there which so fun!

My nephew Skyler (Melissa's son) is such an amazing kid! He makes me smile from ear to ear every time I see him. Today he really put a smile on my face. Dave and I were sitting upstairs and something about Germany was brought up. He looked at me and said, "That's where I want to serve my mission." It was so cute. He's 14. He told me all about how he is going to take German in school, so the church will send him there when he goes. I told him that if he went on a mission that Dave and I will come pick him up where ever he goes. He smiled. You have to understand what a stud this kid is. Last night he was standing on the corner with all of his friends at about 10pm. I drove by rolled down my window and yelled at him to embarrass him. It didn't work. As I waved at him and yelled, "Skyler! Skyler! Hi! I love you!!" He just waved back and yelled, "I love you too!" I seriously love that kid. I can't describe what an amazing spirit he has. I loved that boy the moment I met him and he will always hold a very special place in my heart. He brings so much happiness to Dave and I, and he will never understand that. When I met him, it was like we had always known each other. I think after the 2nd time I met him he was telling me that he would love it if I was his aunt. He's just my bud and I'm so glad he's my nephew!

Sorry about all my random thoughts tonight, I just am writing about all I think about :) The picture of Dave and I was taken this summer by my amazing sister Jamie! She had a fun little photo shoot with the 2 of us and took some great pictures! When I get more I'll post them!

I hope you all have a great week and get ready for not only fall, but winter. Wednesday it's supposed to snow and the high is only 36 degrees. Oh I'm not ready to drive in the winter this soon!! I'll talk to you all later!

Random Freezing Post

So I am sitting in my house right now my thermostat says 61 so I broke down, turned on the fire and pulled out the space heater. I'M FREEZING!! It is definitely the first day of fall! Dave said it is cold up on campus too. It kinda makes me sad. My other random post this week is something I am extremely excited about!! I have found the cure for cold sores and it is not a prescription. For the last 4 months I have had cold sores every week. It had been horrible. They have covered my lips, given me swollen glans, made my head hurt, and last night I was in tears because I was in so much pain.

I was reading online and discovered Lysine. It's a protein that our bodies can't create, so we have to take it. So last night I went to the store and bought a bottle of 1000mg caplets. I came home and took 4. This morning and I woke up and granted they are not gone, but they are drying out! I am taking it along with vitamin C and Valtrex. Even my valtrex doesn't work this well though. I am so excited!! I feel so great! My head isn't hurting as bad and neither is my mouth. Tylenol is also helping. But for those of your who suffer from cold sores I would highly recommend Lysine. It's cheap and it works. Take 1 1000mg capsule daily and when you get that feeling that you are going to get a cold sore triple up and take 4000mg. Continue to take 4000mg daily until it goes away. I promise it helps! If you can get valtrex I would take that too!

So why I patiently wait for Dave's student loans to come in my hair is suffering. I want to dye blond and brown in it for fall and want to go to jagged edge salon. I have to wait for a Monday though because they do coupons on Monday and they are very expensive but they are the best I have found next to Shep in Provo.

I have also become crafty. So coming up I have my mothers Birthday, Paula's Birthday, Micaela's Birthday, Rachel's Birthday, Skyler's Birthday, and then I have Jamie and Lilly and Bonnie for Christmas to plan for. I have my mom, Paula, Micaela, Rachel, Jamie, and Bonnie done!! I am so on top of things. I just have Sky and Lilly. This should be pretty simple.

OK there's this weeks update. I think I am going to break down and go turn on my heater. I am freezing!!!!

Crock Pot Adventures Up-Date

So last week was my crock pot week and I must say it was a success!! Our favorite was the Rosemary Chicken with white beans, served over brown rice. If you want the recipe let me know. It's also very healthy. The Swiss Chicken was really rich and creamy. The Clam Chowder was fattening and delicious. The meat loaf had the most amazing flavor ever, but it wouldn't get hard and stay together, so I ended up putting in a loaf pan in the oven which defeated the purpose. I wouldn't make that one again in the crock pot, although I will make it in the oven because the flavor was amazing. The swiss chicken is a savory dish and rich like I said, and I'm not quite sure if I will make it again. Clam Chowder I will definitely make this winter. I didn't end up making the mac and cheese, so I can't say how it turned out. All together this was a very good week and Dave ate pretty dang good if I do say so myself.

The best things I made this week in my opinion were my chocolate covered peanut butter balls and my boston cream pie. (You know where my heart is. Remember, I use to be a 302lb girl at one time!)

Anyway that ends this week. Next week is just random recipes, but if I like any of the them I will let you know!

Sunday Morning Breakfast

So this Sunday I have been looking forward to all week. I had this special breakfast planned for Dave. Every day of the week I make him dinner, except on Sunday. Sunday is our breakfast day! (ok I'll be honest I make breakfast for him every day but it's never anything special, just eggs or cereal or blah blah blah.) So today I found this recipe called "A German Farmer's Breakfast" I loved it immediately because Dave is German (and he'll tell you that the instant he meets you lol. He's very proud of it.)

The breakfast turned out delicious, and a lot more than I thought it would!! Here is the recipe if any of you would like to try it.

German Farmer's Breakfast

(Makes about 6 servings)

3 Medium Potatoes

1/2-1 onion (depending on how much you like onions.) Chopped

1 Bell Pepper Chopped

1 C Ham Cubed Cooked

1/2 C Bacon Chopped Cooked

a handful of fresh parsley chopped (add as much for desired taste)

1/2 C Sliced Mushrooms

4 T Olive Oil

5 Whisked Eggs

Salt and Pepper to Taste

First bring a pot with water (enough to cover potatoes to a boil). Boil Potatoes for 12 min. Drain and let cool.

Combine chopped onion, green pepper, mushrooms, 3 T olive oil, and parsley to a large skillet. Cook until browned.

Cut potatoes into squares and add to vegatable mixture along with 1 T olive oil. Cook until brown.

Add Bacon and Ham until they are heated.

Pour eggs over the whole thing and stir until eggs are firm. Once eggs are firm remove from heat. Serve with fresh grated cheese on top.

Toasted Almond Boston Cream Pie

I just made this cake, but I haven't tasted it yet. I am waiting for Dave to come home. It looks delicious though so here is the recipe...

Boston Cream Pie
Cake
1/2 cup butter (that’s 1 stick), softened on the counter for 20 minutes or so
1 cup sugar
3 egg yolks
1 tsp. vanilla extract
3/4 cup milk
2 cups cake flour
2 tsp. baking powder
pinch of salt


Cream Filling
1/2 cup sugar
4 egg yolks
6 Tbls. flour
1 1/2 cups milk
2 tsp. vanilla extract

Chocolate Frosting
4 oz. semisweet chocolate, chopped
1/2 cup heavy cream
1 Tbls. butter

Toasted Almonds
1 1/2 cups almonds, sliced
1 Tbls. butter
pinch of salt

Boston Cream Pie: Make the cake
Preheat your oven to 375 degrees. Spray 2 8-inch round cake pans with oil, then line with circles of parchment paper. Set them aside.

Cake
Mix butter and sugar, add egg yolks, mix again. Add vanilla and milk and mix. Then add your sifted dry ingredients.

Cream Filling
OK I'll be honest I had to add a hell of a lot more sugar to get it to be thick like pudding/custard, but it does work.
MIX IN A HEAT PROOF BOWL. First mix your egg yolks and sugar until blended. Add milk, mix again, and then add vanilla and dry ingredients.
Put about 3 inches of water in a pot. Bring to a boil. Put your heat proof bowl with custard mix over the top of pot. Whisk constantly until thick.
(I think I added about 12 Tbsp of flour, not the 6 the recipe called for)
When it's thick let cool on your countertop and when room temp. put in fridge and cool completely.

Mix the chocolate topping the same way that you mixed the custard. In a heatproof bowl over a pot of boiling water. When it is melted, let it sit on countertop and thicken a bit.

Assembling the Cake
Put your first cake bottom side up on your serving dish. Pour custard over the top on the flat cake. Put next cake bottom side down on top of that. Spread chocolate frosting over top of the cake. Use the left over custard to spread along the sides of the cake and hurry and stick your almonds to it. :)

If you have any questions let me know. It takes a little while to make the whole thing, but the recipe is semi easy and I'll let you know how it tastes.

Fabulous French Toast

4 Eggs
2/3 C Milk
2 tsp Cinnamon
3 tsp Powder Sugar
8 Slices 2-day old bread or thick sliced bread

Mix eggs, milk, cinnamon, and sugar together. Dip bread on both sides in the mixture letting it soak well.

Grill on 400 degree griddle until slightly crisp and brown on each side.

Serve with fresh berries and buttermilk maple syrup. Yummy!!