Apr 23, 2010

Recovering and Life

Well each day is a process I am learning. I had forgotten what it was like to go through gastric bypass and how sensitive my body is to food. I have to admit that it is so amazing to not have nausea 24/7. The fact that I am able to speak is amazing. I can only eat 3 T. of anything; liquid or solids, per hour. I have to drink 64oz. of water everyday, so fitting everything is, is a process! I can't just gulp water like I want to and I can't just constantly sip on soup. I can't drink and eat at the same time or I throw up. Just so many little things that I had forgotten about. But even though I am going through all of this I am still better now than I have been in a year.

I went out of the house yesterday. Dave took me to the grocery store. I was in my pajama's and looked like a scrounge, but I went. It was the longest grocery trip I have ever taken and I didn't get that much. I had to walk so slow and was so tired and exhausted afterward. I guess the best word to describe how I felt was drained. By the time I got home I was completely done! I did it though! It was a step. That's how I have to take each day now, step by step.

I know I shouldn't complain because I finally am eating soup, but I can't tell you how badly I just want to eat a salad and not think about it. I just want to have the food that I want. I'm grateful for the fact that I can eat at all, but I guess when you get an inch you want it all. :) No really if I could do anything right now all I want to do is go fishing. I just wish I felt well enough to go to Provo river and go fishing. Step by step though, right?

I'm so incredibly grateful for my husband and all that he does for me. He supports me in everything. Thank you Dave for being my rock and doing everything for me. Without you I wouldn't be able to make it! I love you!

I talked to lawyer today and things are moving along. They are coming over to my house next week to talk to Dave and me. They have to come to me because I'm unable to go to them. They think I have a pretty good case and if anything they just want me to be able to cover my over $200,000+ in medical bills and my $1,000 of prescriptions each month. I don't want anyone to think I'm sue happy because that is not it. It's just that I need my bills paid for since I don't get insurance and not 1 thing I have gone through in the last year has been covered. I am unable to work, and I don't have any way of paying for my medical bills right now. I'm trying to get on disability to help, but until then I have to pursue the lawsuit against the doctor who did my faulty gastric bypass.

By the way, thank you to all of you who have continued to donate to "Help Jilly Strasburg Live" after the surgery. I can't tell you how much it helps. Every little bit helps whether it pays for a medicine that week or a doctor's appointment, or any other medical issue. I can't thank you all enough for everything each of you have done!! THANK YOU for helping me live....literally.

Anyway I just wanted to update all of you and let you know how things are coming along. I'm getting better slowly but surely. Each day is another day closer to the day I will get to go fishing again! :) Thank you so much for all your love and support. I can't thank each of you enough for all you have done for Dave and me. Have a great weekend and I'll talk to you all soon!

Oh and if any of you winner's of the auctions have any questions please feel free to email me: jillrstrasburg@gmail.com


Briana said...

man... i get drained going to the grocery store and i haven't had a gazillion surgeries! you rock my dear! everyday gets you closer to not feeling this way. and i bet you didn't really look like a scrounge. you look gorgeous no matter what. :) seriously.

you and dave are so amazingly adorable. i loved getting to meet him finally and being able to see you again! you are a ray of sunshine in my life and i can only hope i find someone as sweet and wonderful as your dave. i could spend all day every day with you guys and just love every minute of it.

Carolyn said...

Jill!!!! I'm so glad you are taking things step by step and that you are ABLE to do so! I've been praying and praying for you! Keep your chin up and that adorable smile! I love you deary! xoxoxoxoxo

Jilly said...

Bri we feel the same about you. Dave mentioned your incredible spirit which is a huge compliment because he doesn't say that about people. I would love to spend all our time with you! We love you!

Hey Carolyn thank you so much for the prayers. I love and miss you tons!

Unknown said...

Look how strong this has made you. Climbing Mt. Everest would be a piece of cake after what you've been through! You'll get through this :)

Mangelson's said...

I'm glad your beginning to feel better. And hang in there, things will work out.